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Thursday, September 22, 2005

Best Friend

Decided since I had a little time I would come in again and write something. The only thing I can think of right at this moment is talking about my best friend John. I know, I know, dear you thought I was going to talk about you but I always talk about you…. In every single blog I make. So sit down and get some insight on the only true friend I have ever had and ever will have. The above picture is John or as I call him "SIMBA"

I have known John for like 13 years. An acquaintance of ours introduced us. Through these years he has always proven to be the best person I have ever met. He has an incredible passion for Disney and is also an incredible artist. He knows everything and anything concerning Disney from the very birth till today. Because of him I am also an addict towards Disney but not to that extent. He has a love for everyone and is everyones friend. Which is why we are so compatible. People may hate us but we love them.



John a.k.a... SIMBA





We have always been strong bonded friends. Back in the early years we attempted to do the dating thing. He had been interested in from the first day we met at a high school football game. I thought he was cute as hell, but as I had just become a civilian. I wanted to take on the first guy that asked me out, which ended up being Kelly. All the girls in my clique wanted him to go out with them but he came on me. (put your dirty little minds back in the gutter) Breaking up with him and still having John stalking me I found another guy to play with. All the girls in my group wanted him too. Come to think of it they had either already had them or wanted to have every guy I was with. Would of taken John but he never made the incentive with me, everyone else did. Not to mention he had already gone out with all the other girls at our hangout and 2 of them said he had slept with them. It kind of turned me off as I thought he was still innocent. Later found out it was all a lie. DAMN DAMN DAMN!!!!! I tried out a few more different types of guys until finally I asked John to go out with me. His fallowing me like a lost puppy and being everywhere I was kind of grew on me. (I have always been the first to make the move just ask Jerry). For two years we dated off and on. It totally pissed off all my girlfriends because he kept coming back to me and not to them. I fallowed him to football games because he was part of the band, I snuck off with him on their breaks, and stowed away on the bus when they traveled to various locations. Half of the time I had no idea why we had broke up just knew we always had a magnetic pull towards each other. After a few tries we decided it would just be better to be friends. More my idea than his. He wanted us to be together forever; at least that is what the psychic told him over the phone.

John and I had a lot happen to us while we were in high school together. Getting arrested, having the Dean of our school calling us into the office all the time, just to suspend us. Skipping school, having the cops chasing us was one of our biggest past times. Getting into fights with people who were our friends, or related to our friends. Not to mention losing and making friends all the time. Constantly protecting one another all the time plus watching out for our friends. Hiding out or hiding each other was the funniest past time. So much trouble for so much love we had for one another. We not only got into legal trouble but we also got into A LOT of trouble at home. Staying up, until the sun came up, watching Beavis and Butthead Marathons, while talking on the phone. Leaving messages on the answering machines, with songs that had a lot of meaning to each other. Being gone for hours. Shutting our doors whenever we were in the bedroom. Hugging, and hanging all over one another in public. AHHhhhhhhhhh the memories. We seemed very much in love but for some reason we could not keep it together.

It didn’t last like I said. After the final break up we decided to just be friends. I got with a few more guys staying sweet and innocent never wanting to having sex, until I was 17 when Jeremy broke my virginity. We were in a motel with 3 other friends drinking when it happened. If I could rewind time, that would NOT have been my first time. I would have still got the tattoo but not gotten drunk or lost my virginity. To this day I still think if John and I would have had a relationship that stayed it would have been him. I sure thought about it more than enough times, we also had plenty of opportunities. Anyways, he and I both ventured in opposite directions. I went and moved in with Robert (Storm) and he went to live with the girl who broke his virginity. (Yes I will admit I was jealous). Eventually John decided that since his mother was moving to Oklahoma he was going to go with her. I went to the airport to say good-bye. It was a very emotional and hard time. I had written a long heart wrenching letter for him but was to much a coward to give it to him. It had explained why I was not with him and why I did a lot of the things I did to him. It apologized for my absence in his life, and recapped on a lot of things that happened in high school. I never gave it to him and later lost it during all the moving I kept making. Robert and I separated a few weeks later and I went to live with a friend and her boyfriend. THAT WAS A HUGE MISTAKE. Lasted about a month their and returned home.

Around my birthday John called me and told me that he was gay, we all knew there was something odd about him but I refused to accept it. I basically hung up on him. For hours I walked around the pool in my moms’ back yard and cried. I had to wonder if it was something that I had done. We had never had sex or even French kissed but yet he was gay. I totally blamed myself. It also didn’t help that another guy I had dated did turn tail but we did have sex and all that. What did I do to deserve this and what made them do this to me. Other guys I had dated either stayed my friends until I got married or vanished off the face of the earth shortly after breaking up. John was the longest lasting friend and to this day the ONLY one that I talk to from my past.

About a month after John had told me he was gay I drove with my brother Keith to see him in Oklahoma. After hunting down where his grandmother lived she told us where we could find him. Showing up at his work I stole his bear claw man ring and asked him to come back with me and marry me. Of course he told me no and that he wanted to be near his mom. I left tore up. Taking care of other business in Oklahoma we returned home. Not to long after my visit the phone calls and letters stopped. He vanished off the face of the earth. For a long time I did not date anyone. I went out with guys but they all new that I was not interested in taking it any farther than just hanging out. After being smashed to pieces by 2 guys, Robert and John, I figured by cutting out relationships, life would be so much better. Quite a few months passed and I was still single until my girlfriend Jenna found it a huge emergency to introduce me to her boyfriends’ best friend Jerry. (READ BLOG LABELED APRILS FOOLS) Roughly three and a half years later John appeared back in my life. He had found me on Classmates.com. By this time I was married and living in an apartment with my husband Jerry and our roommate Jeff. I was ecstatic. I could not believe he still wanted to talk to me. I figured he never wanted to ever have anything to do with me since I had proposed. I mean it was right after I had done that. Anywho, he and I have been talking and hanging out ever since. Though he now lives two hours away instead of 2 miles we are still able to go to one another if we need a friend. I am even happier that Jerry lets him be in my life. He will never understand the connection that John and I have. Like a gypsy once told me… “He is my mated soul. Never together in embracement, but always together in friendship”. Which is true. He is definitely a very special person, to me that is. Yeah people look down on him, and on me cause I am a married woman, and he is a guy that I spend a little more time than I should with. But they can just kiss my grits. I have never known anyone in my life as long as I have known John. I plan on keeping it just the way it is. Peaceful, playful, and forever.

Well I think that is enough. I hope I have given some insight on the ONLY friend I have and what kind of person he is. Here is just a peice of his artistry that is currently a murel on my ceiling.