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Thursday, September 22, 2005

Best Friend

Decided since I had a little time I would come in again and write something. The only thing I can think of right at this moment is talking about my best friend John. I know, I know, dear you thought I was going to talk about you but I always talk about you…. In every single blog I make. So sit down and get some insight on the only true friend I have ever had and ever will have. The above picture is John or as I call him "SIMBA"

I have known John for like 13 years. An acquaintance of ours introduced us. Through these years he has always proven to be the best person I have ever met. He has an incredible passion for Disney and is also an incredible artist. He knows everything and anything concerning Disney from the very birth till today. Because of him I am also an addict towards Disney but not to that extent. He has a love for everyone and is everyones friend. Which is why we are so compatible. People may hate us but we love them.



John a.k.a... SIMBA





We have always been strong bonded friends. Back in the early years we attempted to do the dating thing. He had been interested in from the first day we met at a high school football game. I thought he was cute as hell, but as I had just become a civilian. I wanted to take on the first guy that asked me out, which ended up being Kelly. All the girls in my clique wanted him to go out with them but he came on me. (put your dirty little minds back in the gutter) Breaking up with him and still having John stalking me I found another guy to play with. All the girls in my group wanted him too. Come to think of it they had either already had them or wanted to have every guy I was with. Would of taken John but he never made the incentive with me, everyone else did. Not to mention he had already gone out with all the other girls at our hangout and 2 of them said he had slept with them. It kind of turned me off as I thought he was still innocent. Later found out it was all a lie. DAMN DAMN DAMN!!!!! I tried out a few more different types of guys until finally I asked John to go out with me. His fallowing me like a lost puppy and being everywhere I was kind of grew on me. (I have always been the first to make the move just ask Jerry). For two years we dated off and on. It totally pissed off all my girlfriends because he kept coming back to me and not to them. I fallowed him to football games because he was part of the band, I snuck off with him on their breaks, and stowed away on the bus when they traveled to various locations. Half of the time I had no idea why we had broke up just knew we always had a magnetic pull towards each other. After a few tries we decided it would just be better to be friends. More my idea than his. He wanted us to be together forever; at least that is what the psychic told him over the phone.

John and I had a lot happen to us while we were in high school together. Getting arrested, having the Dean of our school calling us into the office all the time, just to suspend us. Skipping school, having the cops chasing us was one of our biggest past times. Getting into fights with people who were our friends, or related to our friends. Not to mention losing and making friends all the time. Constantly protecting one another all the time plus watching out for our friends. Hiding out or hiding each other was the funniest past time. So much trouble for so much love we had for one another. We not only got into legal trouble but we also got into A LOT of trouble at home. Staying up, until the sun came up, watching Beavis and Butthead Marathons, while talking on the phone. Leaving messages on the answering machines, with songs that had a lot of meaning to each other. Being gone for hours. Shutting our doors whenever we were in the bedroom. Hugging, and hanging all over one another in public. AHHhhhhhhhhh the memories. We seemed very much in love but for some reason we could not keep it together.

It didn’t last like I said. After the final break up we decided to just be friends. I got with a few more guys staying sweet and innocent never wanting to having sex, until I was 17 when Jeremy broke my virginity. We were in a motel with 3 other friends drinking when it happened. If I could rewind time, that would NOT have been my first time. I would have still got the tattoo but not gotten drunk or lost my virginity. To this day I still think if John and I would have had a relationship that stayed it would have been him. I sure thought about it more than enough times, we also had plenty of opportunities. Anyways, he and I both ventured in opposite directions. I went and moved in with Robert (Storm) and he went to live with the girl who broke his virginity. (Yes I will admit I was jealous). Eventually John decided that since his mother was moving to Oklahoma he was going to go with her. I went to the airport to say good-bye. It was a very emotional and hard time. I had written a long heart wrenching letter for him but was to much a coward to give it to him. It had explained why I was not with him and why I did a lot of the things I did to him. It apologized for my absence in his life, and recapped on a lot of things that happened in high school. I never gave it to him and later lost it during all the moving I kept making. Robert and I separated a few weeks later and I went to live with a friend and her boyfriend. THAT WAS A HUGE MISTAKE. Lasted about a month their and returned home.

Around my birthday John called me and told me that he was gay, we all knew there was something odd about him but I refused to accept it. I basically hung up on him. For hours I walked around the pool in my moms’ back yard and cried. I had to wonder if it was something that I had done. We had never had sex or even French kissed but yet he was gay. I totally blamed myself. It also didn’t help that another guy I had dated did turn tail but we did have sex and all that. What did I do to deserve this and what made them do this to me. Other guys I had dated either stayed my friends until I got married or vanished off the face of the earth shortly after breaking up. John was the longest lasting friend and to this day the ONLY one that I talk to from my past.

About a month after John had told me he was gay I drove with my brother Keith to see him in Oklahoma. After hunting down where his grandmother lived she told us where we could find him. Showing up at his work I stole his bear claw man ring and asked him to come back with me and marry me. Of course he told me no and that he wanted to be near his mom. I left tore up. Taking care of other business in Oklahoma we returned home. Not to long after my visit the phone calls and letters stopped. He vanished off the face of the earth. For a long time I did not date anyone. I went out with guys but they all new that I was not interested in taking it any farther than just hanging out. After being smashed to pieces by 2 guys, Robert and John, I figured by cutting out relationships, life would be so much better. Quite a few months passed and I was still single until my girlfriend Jenna found it a huge emergency to introduce me to her boyfriends’ best friend Jerry. (READ BLOG LABELED APRILS FOOLS) Roughly three and a half years later John appeared back in my life. He had found me on Classmates.com. By this time I was married and living in an apartment with my husband Jerry and our roommate Jeff. I was ecstatic. I could not believe he still wanted to talk to me. I figured he never wanted to ever have anything to do with me since I had proposed. I mean it was right after I had done that. Anywho, he and I have been talking and hanging out ever since. Though he now lives two hours away instead of 2 miles we are still able to go to one another if we need a friend. I am even happier that Jerry lets him be in my life. He will never understand the connection that John and I have. Like a gypsy once told me… “He is my mated soul. Never together in embracement, but always together in friendship”. Which is true. He is definitely a very special person, to me that is. Yeah people look down on him, and on me cause I am a married woman, and he is a guy that I spend a little more time than I should with. But they can just kiss my grits. I have never known anyone in my life as long as I have known John. I plan on keeping it just the way it is. Peaceful, playful, and forever.

Well I think that is enough. I hope I have given some insight on the ONLY friend I have and what kind of person he is. Here is just a peice of his artistry that is currently a murel on my ceiling.

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Birthdays

OMG it has been a millennium since I last wrote in here I guess that is what happens when you become the assistant to the district manager and the district trainer. Work has been an unbelievable handful. I am always busy. If I am not doing what I am paid to do I am writing scripts for the boss. With NO extra pay. Which would be nice but is no big deal as I am totally happy that I am busy. It just wears me out so much that when I come home I am to tired to do anything else. I have been finding it quite hard to be the happy homemake like my husband wants me to be. It is nearly impossible to do everything I do at work then come home and do it all over again. People I talk to at work tell me that if I don't take a break from it all that I will have a mental breakdown and lose everything. I just tell them that is what sex is for, a great mental relief and it takes your mind off the pain. Just little something something and I am good for a few more days.

*Husband blushes as he reads that*

Just a quick note to describe what went on for the birthday thing.

Had my birthday on August 12th. Jerry got me the first season of "Bewitched" on DVD, the whole season for "Father of the Pride" on DVD and "Flight of the Navigator". Unfortunately I still had to kind of work for my birthday but not the whole day. I had to go into a studio and fix it as best as I could. But all day long I got phone calls from workers asking for help. Which I am used to but it made it kinda hard to enjoy myself with the phone ringing every 20 minutes. Attempted to go to the movies but they don't do the free thing anymore so we went out to lunch instead. Spent some time at his grandmothers house. Jerry invited his friends to meet us for my birthday dinner at Red Lobster. We came home and had birthday sex. Always my favorite part of the day. A few weeks later my best friend in the whole world came by with his mother and he gave me a cd and a little wooden horses head. I was just happy that one of MY friends remembered my birthday.

Jerrys' Birthday was Aug 30. Like always he makes out like a bandit. Midnight I come rushing into the computer room dripping wet from the bath and gave him a big wet
kiss 'litterally' and a birthday card. Later he got his birthday sex. In the morning because I had planned the whole day I made him get up early, but woke him with pleasure and a birthday card. As he got into the shower he discovered his first of many birthday presents, Season 3 of his favorite tv show 24. We got into the truck and drove to our first destination. On the way I passed him a card which contained a 15 dollar gift certificate to In N Out his favorite eatery. Then another card that contains a 20 dollar gift card for bestbuy. We walk around looking for something to buy but he does not want anything scared that I had already bought and not wanting to ruin his surprise like he did for our anniversary. SO we went to In N Out. Leaving their we made our way to the movies where I gave him another card that contained a 20 dollar gift card for the movies. While waiting for the theatre to open it he scheduled lunch with a co-worker which eventually worked out cause that was another part of his birthday plan. I used his phone to text message all his friends with cell phones and tell them where to meet for dinner and what time. After the movie we went to meet his friend at Chipotle. On the way I gave him another gift card for 15 dollars so he could eat. After lunch we went and visited his grandmother for a little while but as it was so hot in their we had to leave early. Trying to kill time we drove to castle boutique and spend roughly 45 minutes their. I gave him a dodge charger watch on the way. Leaving their we went and got something to drink from Dennys' then got gas. This ended up making us fashionably late for his birthday day dinner. The original plan was to go to this Mongolian bbq on mill Ave but it had been shut down so we went to hooters that was upstairs. Only one person showed up. Ceazar... his wife arrived later as she was still working. I was not happy but he was. Spending quite a few hours their we went home. At the house he immediately went to the restroom which gave me the opportune time to get out the rest of his presents. I laid out three odd shaped presents one behind the other. The first one he opened was season 3 of the "Dukes of Hazzard". Of course he put in his 2 cents says that this was pointless without 1 and 2. He then opened the second gift which had season 4 and tv greatest episodes of the "Dukes of Hazzard". Again he mentioned he wanted season one and two. The third gift contained season 1 and 2 plus the pilot episode for "The Dukes of Hazzard". Now he was happy. Looking them over we went to bed where I attempted to give him some sweet loving one last time but he declined as he was to tired. Turning over I hand him one more card that has scooby doo on the front and on the inside it says I RUV ROO.

Anyways that was our birthdays. Will write more later.